I Fail to Understand –
If naked truth unsettles
Then blurred reality confounds
If blunt words hurt sentiments
Then sharp silence pierces the heart
If tacit engagements are illicit
Then explicit meetings divulge the secrets
If unruly behavior is improper
Then regulatory behavior is artificial
If glory is ephemeral
Then libel is eternal
If forgiving is forever important
Then punishment is not forever unimportant
If freedom is birthright
Then free-will is not free
If emotions are expressed
Expressed are not emotions
When will the meanings emerge out of meanings to resolve these problems?
Set me free –
Set me free from the bondage of kindred ties
Set me free from the onus of love
Set me free from the everlasting prison of memories
Set me free from the labyrinth of duties
Set me free from the whirlpool of equations
Set me free O lord
“Why do you need me? Enable your release yourself” the lord replied
“But it is not possible without you said I. I need your help”!
The lord smiled and said, “This is the bondage you are in and need to break free”.
Why does the clock strike twelve?
Sinking into the deep waters of the sea
The ship refuses to drown
The moment of distress wants to restore the one chance of livin
Why then does the clock strike twelve?
I feel the onus of staying with guilt
The moment urges me to efface my sins
I wish to renounce my ego and expiate my sorrow by seeking forgiveness
Why then does the clock strike twelve?
Talking to you makes me feel happy
The pleasure of being with you is fine
The desire of having you forever is unbending
The thought of losing you never comes
Why then does the clock strike twelve?
When strong wind blows
I close the windows
When windows are closed
I feel suffocated
Enclosed within the four walls of the house, I know I would be protected from the tumult outside
Yet I want to liberate myself and face the storm
Why then does the clock strike twelve?
I know that people come and people go
Friends are made and friendships broken
Love charms and also agonizes
Emotions break and desires remain unfulfilled
Life gives and also takes
Failure is never final and success is never ending
When my knowledge does not lose any track of wisdom
Why then does the clock strike twelve?
Why do you strike twelve every time I make an effort to reason and try to palliate my insecurities?
I asked the clock
It replied, “Well, I strike twelve only because it is twelve. What can I do if you reason, rationalize and think only when it is twelve”?
The Choice is yours
I do not see anything literally I am blind
But I can see you
I wish I could see other things as I can see you said I
He smiled and asked “Is there anything that is devoid of me”?
In everything that you want to see, you’ll see only me.
Is it? I remarked curiously.
Yes, said he and I said, enthusiastically. Then I want to see you in everything. So I want to see everything. I became impatient.
He said. So be it.
I could see everything else but I could not see him him so I asked. But where are you? I cannot see you now?
He laughed and said, “Now you can see everything so you can see me! Don’t you see me?
No, I replied
Then what can you see? He asked
Everything in this world. Everything that exists in this world! I said excitedly
O! said he. So you can see everything that’s there in the world right?
Yes. I reiterated.
But you cannot see me.
Yes.
Remember you said you will see me in everything that you see in the world. But that’s not so. Where are you in these things that I see?
His voice bore a solemn disposition as he said, “Then don’t see everything else, and you’ll just see me. The choice is yours.
Either you see these things or you see me.
Vision of Enlightenment-
What we see, is it real? Is the question that perpetually haunts us
“How to understand reality”? I asked him
He said, “ By forgetting everything that is not real”
“But how to know what is real and what is not real”? I asked
He replied, “By understanding that real is not unreal and unreal is not real”.
“And how can that understanding come”? I asked.
“By realizing that nothing real is apparent”.
Tacit Understanding
You came but did not arrive
You knew but was not illumined
You saw but did not realize
You crossed but could not transcend
Thus you cannot understand
But what is to be understood? He asked
That which cannot be understood. He said
But how can I understand that which is not understood
By understanding that what can be understood is not what is to be understood. He smiled.
I kept quiet
Human and Mortal
You are mortal but not human
What does this mean?
It means you are not what you should have been
What should I have been?
“A Human Being”
What am I then if not a human?
“ A Mortal Being”
What is the difference between human and mortal ?
“Mortals die humans live”
There’s no eternal life.
Yes, indeed he replied that’s why you will die
But which human being lives forever?
Those that are not ‘Mortal’
Don’t be evasive. What is Mortal and what is human please specify
Mortals cease to exist and humans live ceaselessly
Not possible! No humans live eternally
It is possible!
How? Show me. Prove it to me! If you can..
Fine. Close your eyes.
Now open them. What do you see?
Myself!
Yourself or Me?
I can see Myself but how is this possible that I am seeing myself instead of you?
Now you have become an immortal human. Think
I kept quiet.
~ RUMINATIONS ~
